"Time is an illusion."
I haven't looked at much of my artwork over the last ten years. Before reviewing it, I knew that not much would be there compared to others. I knew it wouldn't be high in quality and that I would be embarrassed by how bad it all will be. But I also knew that I shouldn't be comparing myself, or my artwork, to others in this way.
It turns out, though, only one of those things is true. There's not much of it. However, the quality isn't bad and it certainly doesn't embarrass me. I tried to create and succeeded in making new things. Some are more complete than others, and I did my best. That much is evident.
I had, and have, room to improve. And overall, it looks like I managed to do it. I fell down a few times, took a couple stumbling steps back, but in the end my skill in digital art is moving forward again.
Let's take a look, shall we?
During that time, my health was extremely poor. I wasn't sleeping and I was always exhausted, depressed, anxious, and spent most of my mental space focusing on staying conscious.
It took a few more years before I got myself into a better place.
I did a lot of drawing during this time. Sketches on paper and only sometimes colouring on the PC with Photoshop. It was intended as a distraction but it was a start.
"It’s no use going back to yesterday, because I was a different person then."
A Decade of Art
There will be a few images with a deviantART watermark in the middle of them, which you'll have to forgive me for. For these, I do not currently know the location of the original. (In my defense, I moved in 2018 and these would be on a CD, DVD, or hard drive somewhere in a box.)
I couldn't be bored.
Random Trivia: Starphire is the character I would originally use to represent "me" online. I would create them in online games like World of Warcraft and AION, and it is still the name I use in my email. (And that is the height of professionalism, obviously.) Nowadays, Starphire exists as a character in one of the stories I'm working on. They no longer represent "me" but are still much a part of my sketchbooks, writing, and appear in dreams.
Next is another drawing that started as pencil on paper, and was inked and coloured in Photoshop afterward.
It wasn't long before I just... stopped drawing.
I don't know, either.
I continued with the vector-like style for a while, using the mouse and pen tool in Photoshop to ink drawings. I wanted a high-end tablet so badly, but had trouble using the one I had. I couldn't get over the disconnect of drawing on a black sheet and looking at the screen. So, I stuck with faking it with the mouse/pen tool combination.
It seemed to work reasonably well. It was time-consuming, though, and I do not miss it.
This was the year I started a new job in Toronto, after the encouragement of my boyfriend to take a chance. I had applied to be an Administrative Assistant, but the company was interested instead in my skill in InDesign and Illustrator.
Which I still have. Yaaaay.
I had received a number of calls and emails from shady sources: my resume was up everywhere and was given to just about anyone, it seems. I had numerous individuals contact me about jobs I had not applied for and was not qualified for. Some were obvious scams, and others less so. When I received an email about an entirely different position from a company I applied to, I was skeptical. It had been some time since I applied, too.
But this was the kind of job I wanted. And there was no reason for me to be skeptical.
I set up an interview, got my portfolio ready and met with the team.
And as for the job... I got it.
This was also the year I had to get some Health Stuff™ taken care of, thanks to encouragement from the boyfriend. And it was a good thing, too.
"Yesterday I was clever, so I wanted to change the world. Today I am wise, so I am changing myself"
The fiance lived in California and I in Canada, so we had to make a choice. We decided I should move to California, as it was easier for me to do so than it would be for him.
We knew 2018 was going to be a busy year.
In August 2018, I left my job in Toronto. The company knew about it well in advance, of course. I had been packing for weeks and I needed to ensure I left my job with enough time to make certain there was time to finish doing so before it was time for me to leave the country. With my PC, Leviathan, packed up with all my stuff I had only a Samsung Galaxy Tab 3 to use for media. It was at this time that I made the connection: I had a tablet. A tablet that I could use for drawing. And it had a screen I could draw on directly.
I could work with this.
Drawing here was slow going since I had not used a tablet with a screen for art before. There was a bit of a disconnect of not using paper but it was not as jarring as looking at an entirely different screen.
(Turns out, I broke my tablet pen at some point so that certainly didn't help... it still kinda worked though?)
I began updating my Wordpress blog and portfolio (that's here) on a semi-regular basis. I created and maintain the website for my husband's company, Tali Gibson Designs LLC. I've been designing and creating mockups for both the Tali Gibson Designs company portfolio, as well as my own. I took, and am taking, courses on Udemy to improve and update my skills in the Adobe Creative Suite.
Most of my "improvements" this decade, or things I have accomplished, feel like they have all been done this year. That would not be fair to say, though, as changes have been leading to this for some time now, set in motion years ago.
But I have also accomplished much this year. and that feels pretty great.
The next image, I became inspired to create some fan art for The Sims 4. I have been a fan of the franchise since the original Sims game and might be a bit obsessed with it.
Finishing this, I planned to draw more. The sims parents, to be more precise. In fact, I may have started already.
And I would say I'm off to a good start, Wouldn't you?
I would love to hear your feedback.